Category: Misc.

is this who I am now?

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I got super carsick yesterday, which isn’t something that happens to me regularly. (boat sick, yes… Carsick, no.) When the waves of violent nausea set in I instantly remember a Tuesday, a few weeks ago, when I also experienced a severe case of carsickness, to the point of vomiting multiple times all over my best friend’s car. Terrible.

I also realized that, aside from the following day when I spent a few hours in the car dead asleep, I hadn’t been in a car since that fateful Tuesday nearly three weeks ago. This is due to working from home, and covid. (Covid is 100% to blame! The number of canceled plans proves that if it had been up to me, I would have been out doing things…) It begs the question: is this who I am, as a car passenger, now?

I hope not! (especially since I’m headed out of town on Saturday)

As I drove home from dropping my husband off, cool air on my face and music in my ears, my mind began thinking about how much life had changed. There once was a time my car was driven daily and I plowed through a dozen+ podcast episodes weekly and found myself grabbing coffee from a drive-thru… I can’t even imagine that life now.

It sounds exhausting.

I’m certainly happier at a slow pace.

I was dropping my husband off for a business trip, which is another huge thing that has changed… He used to travel for work 2-3 weeks out of most months, whereas this is the second business trip he’s taken in 4 years.

Sometimes it feels as though nothing changes and we allow boredom to set it. Minus the onset of what seems to be my new “friendship” with carsickness, I’m finding myself so grateful for the chance to reflect back on how those specific things have changed for the better…

Taking time to pause and look back to evaluate changes and growth can be a beautiful thing.

August slipped away…

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Here’s a super quick post about what I learned in August:

  • You can plan and prepare for many things, but they will unfold the way they are meant to and that’s ok. Probably better, to be honest.
  • The internet can be terrible, but it can also be magic. We’ve reached the point in this game where we need the magic that is made from a small boy and his deep love of corn and the world of artists on TikTok who see the potential.
  • No matter how safe we are, how insured we are, or how we “plan for the worst” sometimes we just get screwed.
  • My best friend’s mom makes the best cupcakes in the world.
  • When you deeply love someone and write about them in your book, and then everyone who reads your book falls in love with them too–this is exactly the sort of thing I didn’t know I needed to happen, but it did and I want to do that again and again and again with my people.
  • The Resort on Peacock is brilliant. (that’s all. That’s the line here.)
  • Covid is weird. Like, my thighs are crazy week and my tastebuds make things taste wrong. (they also enhance salty and sweet in the worst of ways). It leaves me exhausted but prohibits me from sleeping. People die from it, but also there are no restrictions anymore… I’m in a giant swarm of Covid brain-fog and confusion over here, going on 8 days strong. Also, something as simple as folding a t-shirt becomes hella hard.
  • My people create amazing things.

Fun, Mid-week bits…

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Hey there!

  • Did you know that on Wednesdays, in the Rainy Day Space Facebook group, I pop in for a Mid-day, Mid-week, Moment? In this weekly few-minute live I share something that can help our members live more mindfully, connected, or all around better!
  • Have you had a chance to catch up on the summer issue of This Inspired Life? There’s an essay in there by yours truly and I’d love for you to read it!
  • Are you all caught up on the Rainy Day Collective Podcast? I am LOVING these summer conversations we’ve been having! They are hands down some of my favorites!
  • Lastly, did you know that you can read the first chapter of my memoir Girls, Assassins, & Other Bad Ideas for FREE by clicking this button?

oh oh, elenor…

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Every morning yours is the first face I see. You are pure love, never able to be close enough but still you try.

Everyone loves you. EVERYONE. In the neighborhood, you’d win popularity contests, and with friends–they simply can’t get enough of your gentle, loving spirit. You, lovely girl, make the entire world so much better. (not just mine–ours…)

When you hear a song you love and you hop up on your back legs, asking for a dance, I melt. During naptime when you need to be laying on top of my bunny slippers, or the very sweet way you’ve always been with the cat. Be still my heart, you are such a sweet soul.

Today you’re turning five… Five is still such a baby, in person-years, but in dog years you’re finally a true Golden Girl. I don’t want to look at you, as you sit pleading for a piece of my chicken or a handful of blueberries, and think about how much I’ll miss you one day… even so, sometimes I do. Loss has played such a huge role in this journey I’ve walked, I can’t help it. But you know this, you know this and you’ve loved me through it more beautifully than any human could deserve.

I want to love you forever.

Happy birthday, beautiful Elenor. Soft, tender, with those bright brown eyes always radiating so much love… I promise to never be stingy with my chicken, or with peanut butter because one day I’ll regret the “no”s I said. God knows you’ve given far more than I could begin to calculate…