on bloom…

on bloom…

As I approached 2020, I intuitively knew that my word would be Bloom. As a flower lover, I LOVE the word bloom. As an enneagram 4, I cringed when I realized this beautiful word made its way onto most Word of the Year lists. (we Fours do not like to follow trends.) Even so, my [...]

a bit of christmas magic…

a bit of christmas magic…

The first Christmas that I was a mom, found us with a sweet little four year old in our home. Though the adoption would take years to happen, and nothing would go according to hopes or plans, in those very early days life felt saccharine in the best of ways. On that Christmas eve, as [...]

In the fall…

As an eternal student of this thing called life, I have been reflecting on what I've learned within the months and seasons, of this year. While I look forward to the day when I can record all of the beautiful life skills I've learned- this, dear friend, is not that time... Instead, here's what I've [...]

October 26th, 2000

I was twenty-four years and seven months old, to the day. The doctor who had saved me with a shot six long years before had been the one to tell me, with saucer wide eyes, that my uterus had been the biggest mangled mess he'd ever seen. That poor piece of me had survived through [...]

fade to black…

fade to black…

It is not that I didn't fight to get pregnant, and once I did, to stay pregnant. I did the holistic creams on the belly, I drank the raspberry leaf tea. There wasn't an internet in those days, so whenever some well meaning person had some "advice", I was willing to take it. When I [...]