Feelings…

For you, a list… A list of things I feel like doing vs. DO NOT feel like doing…

For instance-

I do feel like having a luxiourous and de-stressing spa day complete with herbal tea, aromatherapy, massage and a facial.

Where as, I do NOT feel like being stuck at home, yet again, with a ten year old girl who is driving me a tad bit crazy.

I do feel like shopping, but don’t feel like dealing with the crowds.

I do feel like eating cookies, but i don’t feel like baking them. (or anything for that matter.)

I do feel like sitting down with a good movie and a bottle of wine. Unfortunately, it is early in the day and I do NOT feel like my daughter growing up with traumatic memories of her momma as a lush. Sad.

I do feel like going to the movies. Always. Come rain or shine. I am like the postal service, in that manner…

I do feel like wearing a warm and cozy sweater, but I do NOT feel like doing the laundry to get it warm and cozy.

I do feel like giving everyone their gifts because I’m so excited for them to open them. I also feel like spending my imaginary money on even more things for them… I desperately wanted to get Genny the new American Girl doll Rebecca… I am so sad it never fit in the budget. I almost bought it about 10 minutes ago, with expedited shipping, but who am i kidding… It still wouldn’t be here on time. Sad. Her birthday is in March but I want her to have her NOW… NOW I tell you…. (hello consumer madness.)

I DO love the multi holiday GAP add and want to watch it all of the time. For the sanity of my family though, I will refrain.

I do not want to deal with drama today. I DO have my sister coming to spend the afternoon. After she called in an emotional panic.

I do want to run away.

I do want a rum and coke. 10 % coke. Sad. I will, too, refrain from this for said reason mentioned above.

This HAS been an overly stressful holiday season. Possibly because my heart just isn’t in it. Plus, probably because there is a lot of dishonesty going around the adults of my family at this time, which is just lame and pathetic.

SCRATCH EVERYTHING on my Santa list, I want an all inclusive trip to somewhere tropical, warm and perfect.

Amen…

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My little Christmas Meme Distraction…

I snagged this from Stuff Parents Need. I needed a happy little distraction! :)

1. Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate? Hmm… The holiday season isn’t complete without either of them, but quite honestly I’m not a huge fan of either. I have a few SMALL juice glasses of Nog, over the season, and a few SMALL mugs of Williams Sonoma hot chocolate. I prefer the champagnes and wines of the season, honestly…

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree? Santa? Just kidding… but yeah, we don’t do Santa. We open gifts on Christmas Eve, after dinner. We take our time, taking turns and really just enjoying the time together. Christmas morning results in a stocking and the “big” gift and then heading, pajama clad, to my sisters for a very early breakfast and gift exchange. At noon we go to my husband’s parents house for another gift exchange, Christmas dinner and then my mother in law’s birthday celebration…

3. Colored lights on tree/house or white? We typically have colored lights on our house, though this year we have none. This is my first year with a pretty/themed tree. We have white lights and white, silver and gray ornaments. Genny has a tree upstairs though, with colored lights and all of our family ornaments.

4. Do you hang mistletoe? No, but we have a kissing ball.

5. When do you put your decorations up? I try to decorate just after Thanksgiving but we’ve only really done a tree and some pine garland this year, and we just barely got it done. Most of our decor is still packed.

6. What is your favorite holiday dish? IBaked caramel french toast on Christmas morning. Yum!

7. Favorite Holiday memory as a child? Playing “Santa’s elf” by helping my grandfather pass out gifts to family.

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? I don’t remember really. I remember asking once, and being told he was real. I do remember feeling really lied to when I found out he wasn’t.

9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? We open most of them. If they came in the mail, from friends or family and our gifts to each other (except for stockings and the “big” gift).

10. How do you decorate your Christmas tree? Every year, before, we bought ornaments for each other that somehow tied into the year. We would hang them all, along with family ornaments. This year though, we went different. After last Christmas I just really wanted a kid tree, and a pretty one.

11. Snow! Love it or Dread it? I LOVE to watch it snow, outside my window. I love playing in it. I love skiing. I love blankets and fields of deep, untouched snow. The end. I hate, hate, HATE driving in it.

12. Do you remember your favorite gift? A puppy, when I was 11.

13. What’s the most important thing about the Holidays for you? I am a gift giver. I LOVE giving gifts so typically I get pretty wrapped up in it. This year has been the exception.

14. What is your favorite holiday tradition? I love advent. I love baking cookies. I love spending time with friends. I love the lights of the tree. I love our Christmas Eve tradition, and family time on Christmas Day… I am pretty much a big fan of Christmas.

15. What tops your tree? We have a star.

16. Which do you prefer giving or receiving? I love the giving. I love it so much that I don’t usually care if I recieve anything at all. I just love the buying, making and wrapping of them. I love prettily packaged presents…

17. Candy Canes: Yuck or Yum? really like candy cane ice cream… does that count?

18. Favorite Christmas Show? I love the Muppet christmas carol, Miracle on 34th st, etc… as a family. When kids aren’t present, than Love Actually, hands down!

19. What is your favorite Christmas Song? My absolute favorite is Oh Holy Night.

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After a million cheesy titles for this, I’ve got nothin’…

Have you ever wondered if one particular thing in your life had gone just slightly different, all of your dreams may have fallen in your lap?

Like, for instance, movies.

I love movies… LOVE them. Although I don’t aspire to be a screenplay writer, I wouldn’t mind it. What I’d really love- if I got to pick and choose- would be celebrity photography/film promotion. Wouldn’t that be awesome?

At any rate, yesterday may very well have been that “day”, for me. It could have held that “moment.” And now, now we’ll never know how it would have turned out.

You see, yesterday I was approached to do a photo shoot for a local company who is filming a fly fishing porn film. Yep…

I will allow you a moment to process this and compose yourself…

Better?

Ok.

Regretfully I had to decline, though one has to admit that such an event could put a whole new spin on lifestyle photography…

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ok you guys…

I need your opinion.

I have seen some people conform blogspots into website looking stuff. I just can not justify the expense of a web designer right now (at all) and so I’ve been feeling sorry for myself. My husband knows some stuff about building sites, but not much. Plus there are just so many other costs that go into it. So we decided to use a blogspot for our photography business until we reached particular goals.

BUT, I’ve not been happy with it, at all… So, knowing nothing about anything, I went in there this weekend and played around with parts of it. Then today I sat down and worked on the rest… Can you go there and just look around and tell me if it looks ok? I realize it’s still a blogspot so it’s going to have SOME blog characteristics but I tried really hard to make it a least bloggy as possible…

here it is

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