Mae @ Rainydayinmay

Smile, though your heart is breaking…

Published on August 13, 2012January 17, 2013 by Mae @ Rainydayinmay2 Comments

First off, i have to say that I do not have the copyright to that image. I have no idea why it’s saying I do, except that my laptop is having some “special” issues…

Moving on…

There is nothing more sad than having a sad husband. As heart breaking as a broken kid, or child tears can be, having a really sad and defeated husband is the worst. My husband is sad. It’s been that way for awhile now, but he went and got his hopes up about something and now it’s much worse. Part of the responsibility falls on his failure of a family- and I say failure though it is really just a lazy lack of effort and complete and utter selfishness on their part… Part of it is just life, timings, etc.

I have no idea what to say, or how to be there for him. Well, that last part isn’t true. I am there for him… BUT I just feel like there needs to be more. There are people (it’s a bit of a growing list) that I want to chew out- on his behalf- for lying to him, using him, walking all over him, etc… But I bite my tongue.

The downside is that now i am a bit sad to.

Sending him out the door this morning cracked my heart a little bit…

Love endures all things… This is only temporary… This too shall pass…

Things I feel like I am reaffirming and trying to convince myself of- more and more as the days pass.

Yesterday…

Published on August 8, 2012 by Mae @ RainydayinmayLeave a comment

Record heat.

3+ hour Monopoly game.

BBQ with friends.

Ice cream bars.

Mouthy 13 year old.

Morning spent canning pickles.

Read two chapters in the new Emily Giffen book while processing.

Iced Tea.

Iced water.

More tea.

More water.

Baby giggles.

How was your Tuesday?

You take the good, you take the bad…

Published on August 7, 2012January 17, 2013 by Mae @ Rainydayinmay2 Comments

People have REAL problems… I get it. I logged on facebook last night and saw hundreds of them, just from my click of a mouse… But still, I feel as though I am drowning.

I don’t know why…

We are at a good place in the process with Genny, or at least it finally feels that way.

After a major emotional break through with her on Thursday, Gen seems to be in a good place right now. Things are going well for Chw, L’s deployment is being cut short, Amanda will be home next week, things are going well for everyone and after the five years we’ve had- things going well is an awesome accomplishment…

But still…

Maybe it’s that i’m tired. I’m tired of watching my poor kidlet struggle and ache because she just wants this ordeal to be done. Maybe it’s because I have gotten to where I struggle and ache too. It’s been a long journey, but these past six months have been excruciatingly long and hard. I feel like we’ve all aged a bit.

I feel like I just want someone to pull me into a hug and say “see that finish line? You are almost there…” But instead I press on, and I barely make it through these ridiculously hot days.

Sorry I have been quiet. Hospitalized for a migraine, over night.

Good news: no brain tumors or aneurysms!

Bad news: too much stress!

More stretching, more yoga. More water, less vodka. Just kidding… No vodka. That’s the awesome thing about being married to a man (who doesn’t really drink) that grew up in a severely alchoholic home- life drives me NOT to drink. I become the celebratory partaker.

Good news: odds of being an alcoholic get significantly smaller.

Bad news: I could probably use a drink.

In all of my self absorbed hellish head pain and new found addiction to stress (go figure), I thought I would update you on a few things I am really loving these days… you know, in an effort to be all grateful, positive and stuff…

– phone calls from Afghanistan ROCK MY WORLD!

– whenever they chat, Lucas and Chw plan wood projects. Warms my heart every time.

– Teavana. Have you ever been to a shop? It’s like the golden coral of awesome tea, and really happy/smiling tea pushers. Yum!

Newest wishlist item: this :)

Newest total long shot wishlist item: this *sigh*… Chw laughs every time…

– Drop Dead Diva. I am not kidding. i am not a huge tv watcher, but I caught wind of this show and it’s so good! Chw, (the man who loves a smart chick flick) is equally obsessed. We stayed up evenings, after G went to bed, watching the seasons to catch up with the current season. SO good. so funny. We know NO ONE else who watches this show, yet this show is really popular… One thing I love is that the main character (Jane) is so much like my dear friend Angie!

– summer veggies. Farmer’s Markets are overflowing and I LOVE it… We had a huge pan full of steamed squash and zucchini with TJ’s 21 spice last night and it was juicy HEAVEN… yum. Tonight, Asparagus. Tomorrow night, fresh green beans… I can’t stand all of the deliciousness.

– The Kuerig Sweet tea K cups. S-E-R-I-O-U-S-L-Y… I could LIVE on Tea and veggies right now. (and coconut milk base smoothies… and greek yogurt… and frozen yogurt.)

One thing I am not loving, is trips to the mall. I am not kidding. I hate the mall. If I go once a year, it’s too much. Gen, being 13 and a girl, LOVES the mall… So Chw, or Lucas (when he’s home) or Amanda will take her and I am tremendously grateful. First, a few weeks ago, my phone case broke and I ordered a new (knock off) from the internet for super cheap. Super cheap knock off turned out to POC case and I had to go to the mall to buy a new one from Apple, for full price. Boo. (but cheaper than replacing the phone.) Then, our ipad starts crashing. It’s a gen 1, so we just figured that might be the way it will be. We took it in (separate trip) and they did a test, gave us instructions and told us to come back. (did you just tell me to make a THIRD mall trip???? yay!) We went back on Sunday and they swapped it out for a brand new Gen 1 ipad (To which Chw said “wait, they still make those?” LOL. Because it’s a whole 2 years old…) which now, ALSO crashes all of the time. Personally I believe it’s a secret ploy to get people to upgrade. Boo…

My point, with the mall rant though, is this weekend G and I are going to have some girl time and I asked her what she wants to do. Guess what she said?!?!?!?

Ugh…

Time to go do some more deep breaths, drink some tea and do a little stretching… De-stressing at it’s finest. :)

Foodie Penpal Reveal…

Published on July 31, 2012January 17, 2013 by Mae @ Rainydayinmay2 Comments

This month I participated (for the first time) in the Foodie Penpal Swap over and the Lean Green Bean.

I had so much fun, with this swap! If you haven’t heard of the swap before, in a nutshell it is a really well organized pen pal program, but instead of letters, you send food goodies!

I will definitely be participating again!

I received my package from Suzanne, over at Fit Minded Mom, and I have to tell you guys- it was seriously like a gift from the promised land.

Anyone who knows me, knows I LOVE Trader Joe’s, and Suzanne really loaded me up on some Trader Joe’s goodies! Since our closest TJ’s is tragically six hours away- I was beyond excited…

As soon as I saw that Trader Joe’s bag peaking out, I knew I was one lucky, lucky girl!

It held:

– An Odwalla bar

– Roasted Plantain chips

– TJ’s 21 spice seasoning

– a sample of Dark Chocolate Dreams PB (which is actually my favorite)

– couple of fiberful bars

– protein shake powder

– the BEST thing ever: TJ’s dark chocolate dipped PB wafers. Seriously- heaven in a Trader Joe’s package.

– and a sweet, handwritten note too!

Thanks, Suzanne, SOOO much, for your thoughtfulness and fantastic package!

If you would like to see what I mailed, you can head over to My Kaotic Kitchen. :)

Interested in joining? Here’s how:

-On the 5th of every month, you will receive your penpal pairing via email. It will be your responsibility to contact your penpal and get their mailing address and any other information you might need like allergies or dietary restrictions.
-You will have until the 15th of the month to put your box of goodies in the mail. On the last day of the month, you will post about the goodies you received from your penpal!
-The boxes are to be filled with fun foodie things, local food items or even homemade treats! The spending limit is $15. The box must also include something written. This can be anything from a note explaining what’s in the box, to a fun recipe…use your imagination!
-You are responsible for figuring out the best way to ship your items depending on their size and how fragile they are. (Don’t forget about flat rate boxes!)
–Foodie Penpals is open to blog readers as well as bloggers. If you’re a reader and you get paired with a blogger, you are to write a short guest post for your penpal to post on their blog about what you received. If two readers are paired together, neither needs to worry about writing a post for that month.
–Foodie Penplas is open to US & Canadian residents. Please note, Canadian Residents will be paired with other Canadians only. We’ve determined things might get too slow and backed up if we’re trying to send foods through customs across the border from US to Canada and vice versa.

If you’re interested in participating for August, please CLICK HERE to fill out the participation form and read the terms and conditions.

You must submit your information by August 4th as pairings will be emailed on August 5th!

*If you’re from somewhere besides the US, Canada or Europe and want to participate, send me an email and I’ll see if we get enough interest this month!
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