Category: writing

pinky swear…

Published on by Mae @ Rainydayinmay1 Comment
Dear husband, 
thanks for supporting me. 
thanks for being married to me, even though I’m a writer. I know it sucks to have a wife who “works” so hard, with the goal of SOMEDAY contributing more than pennies to our income. You are patient and you balance our lives as though your wife works full time- without much benefit. 
You believe in me. 
I love you… 
I meant my pinky promise… 
Things won’t always look like this, and when they look better than this- we’ll look back and see how worth it was. 
I love you, and i love now. i don’t want to miss this part of the journey either… 
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Joy…

Published on by Mae @ Rainydayinmay7 Comments
I am taking part in this weeks Five Minute friday, even though I wasn’t planning on it due to the letters. Reading  Gypsy Mama’s post this morning really tugged at my heart strings… 
So here goes… 
Start. 
The giggle of a toe headed, ringlet crowned girl reminds me of something I often ignore. It isn’t ever that i forget because I am way too smart for that. 
No, i grab hold of a reason to feel another thing- be it resentment or sadness, self pity or exhaustion, and I simply pretend like joy isn’t mine to have. 
Joy. 
Joy during the dark storm clouds. During the fat droplets of umbrella-less rain. 
Joy when sleep stubbornly refuses to come my way. 
Joy when my pot boils over, because is it not a blessing to have the bubbling water, source of cooking and pasta anyhow? 
It’s so easy to think of. Easy to convict myself of all of the reasons to find joy in every second of every moment, in every moment of every day. Easy. 
And yet. 
Yet, i flee from it for something more comfortable- something ugly. 
Something I believe to be more me. 
Seeing truth in this joylessness, seeing the honesty in my reason might not be enough to remember to grasp for the option less chosen. But it also might be the motivation I need. 
Today. Now. At 8:20 in the morning I’ve embraced joy and I’m not letting go… 
End. 
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Dream Weaver…

Published on by Mae @ Rainydayinmay1 Comment
Dear Dreams, 
It seems a cruel act of fate that I haven’t started to place true value in your possibilities until I am in my mid-thirties, therefore making it far more difficult to achieve you now. 
Please forgive me for being a low learner. 
Please be persistent in supporting me to not give up on you. 
Please don’t give up on me… 
Tip the scales in my favor, a little bit, will you? I promise not to complain. 
Hugs and Kisses, 
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four thousand, two hundred and ninety seven…

Published on by Mae @ Rainydayinmay7 Comments
Dearest Best Friend of mine,

Split between Boise and West Virginia we have boxes containing the volumes of our friendship. With post marks stamped in eight different states, you and I have documented actual lifetimes. I had no idea, those years ago, that we would journey together, the way that we have.

Over the course of eleven years, two hundred and seventy nine days- we really have grown up together, it seems.

In my darkest, emptiest and most broken of days- you came in and forged a friendship with me like none I had ever had before. Over those 4297 days of friendship, (!!!!) I have learned so much from you. You have walked beside me through my hardest journeys.
Through literal life and death scares,
infertility,
divorce,
heart break,
facing my step father,
cancer scares,
my hysterectomy,
the affects of adultery,
blake,
reconciling my marriage,
the loss of my grandmother,
the loss of my mom Julie,
countless jobs,
moving out of state (seven times)
getting to know my real father,
the broken hearted rejection of my real father,
falling in love with my kids,
RAD hell,
dealing with difficult family,
broken friendships and accompanying heartbreak,
James,
the journey of writing my first novel
the never ending journey of finding myself and so, so much more…
We’ve shared movies, music, books, memories, vacation, countless phonecalls, obsessions…

I am so grateful, Deb, for the beautiful, brave and admirable woman you are. You’ve advised gently and then stood by holding my hand whether I followed your direction or not. You are the only person who has ever seen all of me, and not chosen to walk away or pass judgement. You truly are the only person to never leave me and I can not even tell you how unbelievably grateful I am for that.

One day, hopefully really far from now, someone will come across our friendship on paper. I hope my gratitude and love for you shows in my words. I pray, as our daughters continue to grow more and more into themselves, that they find a friendship like ours some day. A truly safe place that will last forever…

Thank you, Debbie, for being my safe haven. Thank you for being my sounding board. Thank you for making fun of things with me. Thank you for our brief stint in detective work and email hacking. Thanks for covering for me, when I needed it- {and covering me when I needed that too.} Thank you for loving my kids, even without knowing them personally, from the very beginning.
Thank you for never judging me, for never forgetting me, for loving me even though I love Dave Matthews, Edward Cullen and don’t have a kindle.
Thank you for being that friend that I can share all of my secrets with, cry to, laugh hysterically with, be one hundred percent me with and revert to jr. high mentality with…

From the bottom of my heart, always… 
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POST SCRIPT~ Congratulations to Katie’s Calamaties and Lisa of Two Bears Farm for winning copies of Alice Bliss… :) 

thirty postage stamps…

Published on by Mae @ Rainydayinmay5 Comments
I ran across this idea while stumbling aimlessly one morning, in an effort to find inspiration… 
I love it. 
So, I am going to attempt to do this throughout the thirty days of September. I mean, i love to write, right? And I love to write letters… It should be doable, don’t you think? 
Day 01 – Your best friend
Day 02 – Your crush
Day 03 – Your parents
Day 04 – Your sibling
Day 05 – Your dreams
Day 06 – A stranger
Day 07 – Your ex boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 08 – Your favorite internet friend
Day 09 – Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 – Someone you don’t talk to as often as you’d like
Day 11 – A deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 – The person you hate the most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 – Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 – Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 – The person you miss the most
Day 16 – Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 – Someone from your childhood
Day 18 – The person you wish you could be
Day 19 – Someone that pesters your mind – good or bad
Day 20 – Someone that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 – Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 – Someone you want to give a second chance
Day 23 – The last person you kissed
Day 24 – The person who gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 – The person you know is going through the worst of times
Day 26 – The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 – The friendliest person you knew for only a day
Day 28 – Someone that changed your life
Day 29 – The person that you want to tell everything to, but are too afraid
Day 30 – Your reflection in the mirror


I think it will be a good journey… I’m excited. :)
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