You know those moments when someone surprises you with a question and the answer sits there, on the brink of your brain, (or as some say: The tip of your tongue) but you just can’t think of it… And it drives you crazy, until you remember or stumble upon the answer?
Well, welcome to my life these days- hi- I’m Crazy…
This is how I feel, all of the time.
It isn’t that I am more forgetful than usual, it’s that I feel like I am on the verge of changing or falling into this really huge thing- but I can’t quite figure out what it is. Sometimes a completely normal event will occur and this little internal conscience voice will whisper remember this, you’ll need to know this. As the economy worsens, my husband keeps talking about options for plans. Some are pipe dreams and some could be possible, if the leap wasn’t so freakin’ frightening… But, everytime the conversation comes around, I get all jittery and I have this “I had the perfect response! Shoot, I lost it…” feeling. Everytime.
When I blogged about Forks, last week- this is where I came from. I was so in awe (and still am) about how this entire community of people pulled together to better the lives and quality of their town, in such awkward circumstances. (like crazed fans, vampire hunters and the likes, all descending upon their tiny town by the thousands…) The entire time I was there, snapping photos and talking to the townfolk, I kept thinking “this is it. This is it. The answer to everything…”
I guess I just don’t quite know what the question is.
Last night my friend invited me to a local “free movie for mom” event at a theater in Boise. In lieu of ticket prices they asked you to bring a package of diapers if you could, and then they passed out baby bottles- asking you to take the bottles home and use it to collect spare change for a local crisis pregnancy center. What struck me about this was that it was so practical. Even in a trying economy, spare change can be a feesable way to give. And again, the impression that this was somehow the answer i needed, weighed heavily upon me…
Maybe if I sit here and ponder it long enough, the answer really will come to me. I just hope the moment hasn’t then passed me by.